I just wanted you to heal me...
conceal the wounds within' me...
Create some type of positive synergy...
But all you did was put an end to me...
an end to the comfort I found in your arms...
an end to the love I felt in my heart...
everyday it seemed like all you were interested in was killing my spirit and ripping my heart apart...
I just wanted you to be the one to take away all the pain...
But you couldn't even do that...
the chemical imbalance in your brain prevented you from loving me right...
the constant nights of me begging for peace on the other end of the phone...
to the times you kiss me goodbye and me knowing you ain't goin' home...
Calling me a liar because I wasn't ready to open up...
knowing every word I said your motive was to use it against me...
no love, ever... your approach... beastly...
Feast your eyes on my reality ...
a woman burned, scorned, beaten, bruised and abused....
reacted to life through the mind of someone misused ...
begging for love and to call my past a truce...
demons in attack mode, at an all time high...
praying to God for a breakthrough just to get by ..
friends turned to strangers...
I ran to you as if you were my angel...
my heart entangled..
a concept you refused to understand,
Love, for me, is in high demand.
all the shit I told you, all the shit I tried to make clear...
you threw in my face as if you wanted another person to appear...
I never judged you for your mishaps and mistaken steps...
never judged you for the stories not yet told...
because all I knew is that I wanted to grow old...
With you...
it was always a fuckin' issue...
As many times as I told you I missed you...
just wanted to wrap my arms around your neck, stand on my toes n' kiss you...
love you...heal you ...
but love was unreal to you.
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