Insight

Insight

Read my poetry, then maybe you would get me

I put everything on paper, I don’t have time to be stingy

You clingy, I hate stupid people so don’t come around me bein dingy

U aint seein what im seeing, so what the fuck are you seeing?

Pores bleeding, hoes screaming

About how much a nigga aint willin to take care of them

Fuckin every nigga cuz she probably out here scared of them

Wondering why she looks bare to them

If only she could tell them who she is, but she couldn’t bear the real to them

They steal from her,so she lets them

Not knowing young love, she’s already met him

Starting to regret him, she grabbed her shit and left him

Standing still, quote unquote “keeping it real”

She sent him letters, they broke the seal

The demons lurkin, smirkin

Ready for what you ready for, pokin they nose in shit you already ignore

Not ready for what’s in store, she’s prepared to whore

Not her body, but her mind is what they fightin over her for

Her pussy just a tool, but niggas will drain the pool for a ride in her ocean

Love potion, sending niggas and bitches through the love motions

An estranged feeling, when they peel back the lips of her divine

Her shit aint loose, but she’s been around the block a couple times

All she wants to do is rewind a few parts of her past

But looking backwards, she’d be lapped and come in last

She gotta keep pushin, even though they wish death upon her

She doesn’t remember the last time a good love was put on her

Every time she lets the water beat against her head

She wishes the times she had left would be dead

Water like daggers, every time she gets deeper

She would have said stop, but the pain she couldn’t relinquish

Bitch u have problems, bitch you have issues

Things that they’ve said, but things were not meant to

Change so quickly, she has to let go

But every time she changes pace, the hate gets thrown to her face

Where there was once a crown, her head is tilted down

Emptiness turned her smile into a frigid frown

Constantly being let down by her constituents

If I was supposed to gron up straight, then why am I always hell bent

Can’t vent, I can’t breath so I break knees and I plead

Unpleasing to a non human being

Wondering why im constantly mistreating

Not eating, motivating the leeching

The constant self beating,

The self deprivation

Running outta patience, so I just gotta say this

My journey’s running out, one inch at a time

My brain’s are falling out, one hit from who I call mine

Can’t be mine, cuz when I look at this guy there’s a feeling of displacement

Where love is in the sentence, I know there was Hate meant

Don’t let nobody in, that you have to invite out

And if they can’t get in, they’re gonna try a new route

If you say your pussy is dry, they pull the dick out

Like that’s the only answer to the waterless drought

This is all that my pain is about

Negelect, abuse, rape that’s really all I know

So no wonder im so dry, I’ve lost my virgin glow

My body is poor, I feel like there’s no more worth left in it

No matter how I spin it, there’s no fixin how I feel inside

I’d rather be dry than not alive

Tryna figure out how to find a new life

Be somebody’s wife and get loved right

But I walk away from the opportunity, feeling everybody is undeserving

Out to get me, this cannot be the life for me

I have faith, but belief is another story

Are is that the same, I feel like im being played

So I try to create a new game, with no names

Just faces and places

Women are profitable, that’s why they chase us

Fuck us then erase us

Love us then replace us

This love life is dangerous

Don’t mean to be cantankerous

But I feel the world is unjust

But God created the heavens and the earth

The moons and the stars

The soft and the hard

But aint no more love on this boulevard

Vanguard the van goes

Inside nobody knows, a body lays inside it

The driver tries to hide it

Inside there is a tied bitch, a tried bitch

Beaten to within an inch, the inch that will save her life

Because as soon as she could, she ran and couldn’t take flight

But ran as far as she could, left his morning wood

11 AM, they still can’t find her…

They didn’t know that God was behind her

Even when they tried to grind her, the devil tried to fine her

Not knowing a calm spirit lingered

Pointed the finger, then watched a hell raised main go through the ringer

She’s not a singer, but she sings songs of praise

Thought she walked alone, but she was righteously raised.

Looking ahead to better days, she finally raised her head and prayed.

2/18/2011