Green Eyes ...

My body was electrified 
as the passion intensified, 
his love inbetween my thighs... 
As I looked into those green eyes...
Just friendly ties, his heart not mine...
we took each other's breath away,
in and out of time... 
cool as a quick fuck unexpectedly turned into a long like..
his dick proves she hadn't been fucked right
Longer than all night, further into daylight
In spite of the sunny delight...
she willed herself to keep it chill, 
keep it cool, keep it real
she found her place, she knew the deal
sweeter than an orange peel on her soft lip
he rested there and forgot to dip
left his homies, took a sip... 
then she realized
the green eyes found themselves mesmerized
but he don't love em', he don't chase em' he fuck em', duck em', don't bug em'
never raw dog, he glove em'
Baby boy, not Jody Jo
we gotta situation that nobody knows
Never come to blows, cuz we always good
he's soft with the morning wood
constant contact, almost deliberate
We wouldn't have met without the Internet....
Communication was the key, I fucks wit Blood, he fucks with me
Matching our signs in the Astronomy...
wondering if we could ever be...
but we just chillin, in moments of passion and heat
He fucks me like he can't be beat...
does he think about me, I bet he does
When the bitches be on him, when he turns down the hugs
slickly my baby, and we're not in love...
don't know what it is, but I know I like it
Everyday I wake up, i'm trying to fight it...
Tryna deny it, his dick is a tight fit
and then when i ride it, he's looking for my lips
unexpectedly, it seems like he's meant for me
But inside of me, lives an OG.. and she says... 
B cool so you don't grow weary..
Let him make the first move, so you can see things clearly...
don't let the green eyes put you under
Or the long strokes , between the thunder
Hoping this leads to summer, unlikely
Cuz I don't think he's gonna like me, I can hope for a maybe
Considering to be his lady
Knowing he could do me shady 
Regardless, that couldn't phase me
Keeping it lit, like he say
Fuck I miss him, I wouldn't play
Next to him, fucking him as we lay
Fuck a plastic or a paper plate
I'm tryna take you on a real date
After that get ate,
Then have you dictate, all the ways you wanna fuck face
Suck you while I masturbate
Fuck me while I levitate..
Lost in those green eyes...
Hoping his get lost too
Caught in the sauce too
Hoping the thoughts true
I don't wanna get caught boo,
Staring at you through my rearview...
Those Green Eyes... Yea, I see you...

Eye hate U

Eye hate U

I hate you
For everything you did, and everything you didn't do
Wondering why I'm so fucked up, cuz I let you fuck wit me
Let you inside of me, mingle wit my mental
Now I fuckin hate myself for being so fuckin stupid
Every time I look in the mirror I wish it was broken
I wish I was kiddin, I wish I was jokin
Fuck all those sorries, I wish u were chokin
Steadily provoking the demons inside of me
Every time I let you take a ride in me
Figuring out who I'm supposed to be
While you go around fucking every body
Questioning me and my resistance?
How about you focus on your own existence
The insolence creates a certain pestilence
To hell and back and back again is where I've been
But u question my loyalty
Question my desire
All I'm trying to do is live amongst my Sire
Can't focus cuz I'm constantly tired
Tired of your tired ass I shoulda been fired
Tryna rearrange the pages to my handbook
But every time I look at you my right hand goes from solid to shook
I hate you
I hate what you say and what you don't say
I hate when i stop playing games u still wanna play
Thinking I'm just another pretty face
Interrupting my space with your disgraces
Now I'm stuck trying to interpret the puzzled faces
Hate it
I really fuckin hate you
I hate how u hit me
How u slapped me
How u turned me around and attacked me
Had to attack me cuz I wouldn't give my heart to you willingly
You don't love me
U wanna tolerate me
Looks like okay scenery
But this life is obscene to me
Conveniently, fucking you cuz it seems to be
Some fiendery
The fuckery
He say he fucks wit me
But continuously, he plots on me
Wanna get a spot wit me, but I'm not ready, to keep it steady
I hate you
Hate everything you've become and where you might end up
Constantly telling you I don't give a fuck
But givin up is you feelin like you've run outta luck
Trouble lurkin around the corner
I could have told her
Don't let that man hold her
Cuz now he feels beheld
Fuck around and have your mind imprisoned , while he's in jail
Goin thru hell, fuck around and still love him
He was her first love
Now what is she to do
Shit I fuckin hate you
Everything about you
Wondering why I wanna go through life without you
Cuz when I needed you
You didn't need me
So I went out and fucked expediently
Virgin turned promiscuous because she was without an US
a lust was the closest thing to love
Cuz up above God just looks down
With no intentions of coming around
She frowns
Contemplating on taking her own and would have succeeded
If her mama didn't break her knees while she pleaded
Been through too much to just leave it, so I beat it
Beat the hate and beat the rape
But yet the rations are still small on my plate
I'm alone cuz that's how I was taught
I hate the money cuz I can't be bought
I know in life it's said things are better left untold
But I don't wanna be old with a grudge though
Passin out fake hugs to the thugs cuz they wanna feel loved
But I don't give a fuck about that cuz I need love too
Look at my life and recogniZe where I've been and what I've been through
I kill people with no bullets
I hate people who constantly cry about goin through it
If it was meant you'd be able to do it
My life ain't for everybody, I ain't gotta prove it
Fuck who thought they knew it
I hate you too if you ever come into this
Interview this
Fuck the money, what's up in your head
Last time I checked, bread goes to your stomach... And not where u led
Gotta powerful struggle up ahead
And money ain't gon stop a nigga from tryna spread open my legs
Fuck you if you got me
Fuck everybody
I hate you I hate you
I just thought i'd tell you...u look surprised too
But looking in the mirror I don't see nobody behind you.

2/18/2011

Different Perspective

Different Perspective

I see everything from an analytical perspective

Don’t mind me, but I see you tryna play detective

you aint finna find shit, cuz i’m an anomaly

Aint no sense in tryna follow me or read me

Im who I am , who im supposed to be

Spitting flows? No, I speak experience

No love lost, my love is delirious

You’re lost in the fun, while im standing in the serious

Every body walks around like they’re tryna pump good fear in us

What the fuck is good fear?

Is that when your girl runs for cover cuz she hears your steps near

Is that when you slap a bitch, cuz you’ve made yourself clear

Or maybe it’s when you’re uncontrollably drunk after a few beers

I know it can’t happen to me, im mature by a few years.

Whatever it is, it’s possible to have been steered in the wrong direction

Putting your hands on me is not a sign of affection

When there is a moment of conviction after the benediction

It causes confliction, every time I mention

God, now isn’t that odd…

When you “swear to bob”

Every 1^st and 15^th you don’t get a check from your job

What is the cause of your infliction

Did I forget to mention, the pain is a predecessor of the fear to come

That’s why you look at me, with your loaded gun

Can’t hold your tongue so you look fuckin stupid

You’re tryna shoot at me, but your problem should be cupid

He tried to set you up with me, so shit be mad at him

But don’t try to turn a gem, into what you’re resemblin’

You wanna win, I aint sayin join the team

Im just sayin a little niceness goes further than a lot of mean.

That’s why I scream, my needs aren’t being met

You wanna be a dog, well im tryna be the vet

Hello, im miah… don’t believe we formally met yet

But I wanna introduce you to this convent

Save you like holy Jehovah

I wanna save your life and I barely even know ya

I see the potential, every time you crack a smile

Then I start to count the seconds, to see if it’ll last a while

Instead of teeth, I see feet to my face

You called me a stupid bitch, and told me I was the disgrace

Said im a loser, I would never win this race

But I said love is no competition, I will never be in 2^nd place

You paused for the cause and showed me no attention

I swore on your mother’s grave there would be redemption

Changing my life, while tryna change yours

Every time I brought positivity home, you kicked me to the floor

Told me you hate me, love is no more

Then you showed me you’re an ass, so I closed the front door

“get to the back door, so you can be attacked whore”

My eyes just drifted, I dreamnt of luxurious sea shores

Not knowing I replaced my heart with an A-K 4

Seven years I shed tears over the love lost here

Contemplating, steadily waiting for you to come back dear

Holding on to my face, closing my ears

While you shout your obscenities making sure I hear

U couldn’t be more clearer, wishing I could stay

But the end is drawing nearer

Can you hear her?

The call is getting louder

The Lion and the Prowler

She doesn’t want to be a coward,

Doesn’t recognize her power

And every time she showers, she stays in there for hours

Washing away a day she can’t remember

Is it February, or is it still December?

limbs are feeling limber

light is growing dimmer

turn the heat off and bring it to a simmer, plain a simple

im up inside ya mental...

i dont want you fully yet, i just want the rental

if you can take this pain away and promise you'll be gentle

the introductions are never incidental, not coincidental

happiness is a comodity, our love could be more blissful.

maybe we should let the guards know, we're ready rekindle.

2/18/2011

Insight

Insight

Read my poetry, then maybe you would get me

I put everything on paper, I don’t have time to be stingy

You clingy, I hate stupid people so don’t come around me bein dingy

U aint seein what im seeing, so what the fuck are you seeing?

Pores bleeding, hoes screaming

About how much a nigga aint willin to take care of them

Fuckin every nigga cuz she probably out here scared of them

Wondering why she looks bare to them

If only she could tell them who she is, but she couldn’t bear the real to them

They steal from her,so she lets them

Not knowing young love, she’s already met him

Starting to regret him, she grabbed her shit and left him

Standing still, quote unquote “keeping it real”

She sent him letters, they broke the seal

The demons lurkin, smirkin

Ready for what you ready for, pokin they nose in shit you already ignore

Not ready for what’s in store, she’s prepared to whore

Not her body, but her mind is what they fightin over her for

Her pussy just a tool, but niggas will drain the pool for a ride in her ocean

Love potion, sending niggas and bitches through the love motions

An estranged feeling, when they peel back the lips of her divine

Her shit aint loose, but she’s been around the block a couple times

All she wants to do is rewind a few parts of her past

But looking backwards, she’d be lapped and come in last

She gotta keep pushin, even though they wish death upon her

She doesn’t remember the last time a good love was put on her

Every time she lets the water beat against her head

She wishes the times she had left would be dead

Water like daggers, every time she gets deeper

She would have said stop, but the pain she couldn’t relinquish

Bitch u have problems, bitch you have issues

Things that they’ve said, but things were not meant to

Change so quickly, she has to let go

But every time she changes pace, the hate gets thrown to her face

Where there was once a crown, her head is tilted down

Emptiness turned her smile into a frigid frown

Constantly being let down by her constituents

If I was supposed to gron up straight, then why am I always hell bent

Can’t vent, I can’t breath so I break knees and I plead

Unpleasing to a non human being

Wondering why im constantly mistreating

Not eating, motivating the leeching

The constant self beating,

The self deprivation

Running outta patience, so I just gotta say this

My journey’s running out, one inch at a time

My brain’s are falling out, one hit from who I call mine

Can’t be mine, cuz when I look at this guy there’s a feeling of displacement

Where love is in the sentence, I know there was Hate meant

Don’t let nobody in, that you have to invite out

And if they can’t get in, they’re gonna try a new route

If you say your pussy is dry, they pull the dick out

Like that’s the only answer to the waterless drought

This is all that my pain is about

Negelect, abuse, rape that’s really all I know

So no wonder im so dry, I’ve lost my virgin glow

My body is poor, I feel like there’s no more worth left in it

No matter how I spin it, there’s no fixin how I feel inside

I’d rather be dry than not alive

Tryna figure out how to find a new life

Be somebody’s wife and get loved right

But I walk away from the opportunity, feeling everybody is undeserving

Out to get me, this cannot be the life for me

I have faith, but belief is another story

Are is that the same, I feel like im being played

So I try to create a new game, with no names

Just faces and places

Women are profitable, that’s why they chase us

Fuck us then erase us

Love us then replace us

This love life is dangerous

Don’t mean to be cantankerous

But I feel the world is unjust

But God created the heavens and the earth

The moons and the stars

The soft and the hard

But aint no more love on this boulevard

Vanguard the van goes

Inside nobody knows, a body lays inside it

The driver tries to hide it

Inside there is a tied bitch, a tried bitch

Beaten to within an inch, the inch that will save her life

Because as soon as she could, she ran and couldn’t take flight

But ran as far as she could, left his morning wood

11 AM, they still can’t find her…

They didn’t know that God was behind her

Even when they tried to grind her, the devil tried to fine her

Not knowing a calm spirit lingered

Pointed the finger, then watched a hell raised main go through the ringer

She’s not a singer, but she sings songs of praise

Thought she walked alone, but she was righteously raised.

Looking ahead to better days, she finally raised her head and prayed.

2/18/2011

untitled.

I guarantee you a role is being played

they plottin’ on ya life, yo dreams is getting’ sprayed

cuz if it ain’t bout the money, its about getting laid

her daddy  was a child molester, now I’ll take it to my grave

share the world with another lame, and wonder why my life is still the same

dealin’ with the no names,  fillin’ up ya membranes

but my mental too uncontrollable to be tamed

I gotta erase and rename and reclaim, so no one breaks in

And I tell you when you code it, only you can win

But all u do is live in this life of sin,

And u wonderin’ why God aint letting yo prayers in

U sinnin’ for the constant feelin’ of winnin’

Goin bad and disrespectin the women

Even when that’s the only way we enter in

Aint no way a dog can be a human.

We cage them and abuse them

And how do u expect us not to lose them

We choosin’, the losin’ over the prosperin’

Dedicatin’ our life to “hate fosterin”

That’s because we have a lost soul within

Ain’t no use in changing a mothafucker

But I do encourage a hater to turn a lover

Respect your life before u end up 6 feet under

Mother nature will reuse you, and make you into another.

Feed you the seeds you need to please you

U break knees to a non equal and ask the Lord to beseech you

Teach you, wrap his arms around and reach you

Before the devil beats and leaves you bleedin’ while the scavengers eat you

Scary time when the world is underneath you.