Thoughts on love.

God shows you you're loved before you even recognize how important Love is. Love changes things in a way that can give you a peak into the future. Everything that's felt in love should be what you feel when God is running through you. When you have something great, recognize you deserve greatness. You won't put yourself in situations where that greatness can be affected. Hold on to your joy because that's your freedom, that's what set you apart from those that are trapped by their own selfish ways. When you love yourself you know how much you deserve to be happy. When you really think about it, if you know God is Love, why would you put God in harm's way... That makes no sense. If people love themselves so much like they say they do, they would never do anything that would alter that state of being. How is shackling yourself down acknowledging love for oneself? How is putting yourself in positions of being able to be deprived of freedom showing any type of love. All it shows is that you feel like you deserve to be caged. It shows you that you feel like God deserves to be caged. He isn't great enough to be released and shared with the world. How can you be so selfish and deprive yourself of God's greatest gift to us was Himself, that which is Love. When you find love, your greatest gift in return would be to Live through Him. Thru Love. Not hate, because when you have hatred built up inside you, you're killing yourself. Killing yourself would be treason. Even in a horrible situation, if you love yourself you would always want to let it be known you are blessed. God loves us so much he gave us a conscious. 

Ode to maurice

never

because when i look at you, i dont see me

i see where we will never be

i see someone i will never call my daddy, sadly.

this is the reality of my dreams,

and it will never happen the way i want it to

there will never be a me and you

there will never be a miah and a father

there will never be a father and a daughter

you put your hands to my face and i can never forgive you

but God tells me i mus forgive you, in order for him to forgive me,

so i can be blessed eternally.

love conquers all and this notion i must believe

never again will i try to achieve a relationship with this evil being

there is no shame, you are not to blame

the devil got you, youve been in love with his name

the shadow that consumes you will not be my reign

but n exchange for my happiness i release you as my pain.

Remembering love.

I remember love.
Wishing the moments would never go away... The way you looked at me when we woke up next to each other... How I would melt every time you called me yours and the way it felt when I called you mine.

 I remember the way your hands felt wrapped around my small waist.... The way your palms gripped my fat ass.... Soft lips on my lips. I loved the way you moved my hair away from my face when it got in the way... The way you knew my thoughts before I spoke them... 

I remember the way love feels... When you finished my sentences... The way I felt you when you weren't in my presence... Man I loved knowing we would always be together.... We would work through whatever ... The baby I wanted to carry was supposed to be yours.... Envisioning myself walking down the aisle... Closer to my dreams... Of you and me. 

 I am remembering love at it's best. We knew each others likes and dislikes.... We were inseparable. In and out of time we stole away with each other. You were my refuge.... I was your getaway ... Man... Life was easier when I was loving you and you were loving me..... Love. The place I want to be.